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I was born in "Pinselhexe"
which might be translated with "the witch of paint brushes" was given
to me by friends. It is not really a professional name. It was a nickname in
the very beginning. There was a party, it was a bit late, there was a
nice assortment of great wines - we were a bit elevated . We had an exciting and
transcendental discussion on the topic of rebirth. We invented some kind of
historical lifetime and "biography" for everyone of us. It was fun! (: They decided that
my historical life had taken place in the time of inquisition. The
assortment of great wines made me a rebirth of a "witch"
burned in the Middle Ages. Perfect for a trashy novel ! (: Well, in real life I
used to write letters with a fine brush, brushes were equal to any other kind
of writing device. And I was a painter. This was the day when
the "witch of paint brushes " was born. I never got rid of this name. So I decided to resign myself to this nickname - and made the best of it. I got used to it. (:
I am a kind of nomad :) There seems to be no home in this life. That is why I am on my way moving again. I used to live in Munich, Berlin and Wolgast, a small Town near the polish border nearby the Isle of Usedom. Now I am on my way to moving to a village nearby Erfurt, the capital city of Thuringia. It is located right in the middle of Germany, a place to find cultural life. In general people are not so different in other places but living in a place with some cultural life makes it easier to find some like-minded people. I am looking forward to it.
Cosmopolitans,
honesty, direct ways of communication, transparency, and constructive
review without any impeachment, broken biographies with a lot of facets,
because you can find most interesting people there, fairness, high
spirits, quick witted people with a sense of humour (the sense of humour
definitely helps us to survive) willingness to take risks, there is no
development without taking a risk, miracles , children and the way they feel
about things , people with a moral courage and the courage to survive (Have
we got any choice otherwise?
Stupidity,
pigheadedness, envy, competitive mentalities, costiveness, unidimensional
mentalities, small minded people, confirmed pessimists, imperiousness,
cynisism, deceiptfulness, intriques,viciousness, ambush and psychological
blackmail, bitchiness, intolerance,
self-righteousness, and arrogancy, patriotism and glorification of
violence and everything which is subject to any kind of dogma.
I would like to travel
around the World with an open limit of time and money . If I were a bit younger
I would have emigrated to some other country, probably into some
English-speaking Country . Germany is a place
without any understanding for it`s artists und freelancers. You might be
extremely successful with some technological innovation, some new car
technology, these kind of things. But artists and freelancers are not the
kind of people I would like to have
the talent to back off the time. I would love to avoid some things that
unfortunately happened in "earlier lifes". (One might ask, if
this works... probably not. On the other hand it is much more useful to make
no bones about it) I would love to switch
off some unappealing people just the way we deactivate some stupid movie on
T.V.
Great question. This is
one of those things which cannot be planned. Life puts us there, no matter if
you want or not. There is only one way left. We are forced to to do what
we are made for. In my life however,there was no plan for a
"normal" way of life. Some people are "different" (as a
friend of mine eventually expressed this fact in his friendly style (: ) This is not to
say that you would make a bad job in a "normal" occupation, the
point is you do not match. People with "normal" jobs seem to live
in some other universe. ( I presume those people feel exactly the same way
about "weirdos" :) ) You are classified as a
weirdo by society and they won´t accept you the way you are.
"Weirdos" are people who incommodate those with very narrow
personal limits. "Weirdos" are disturbing factors for our
standardized society. My experience
actually was that you are watched and stared at as if you were some
rare animal from some unknown galaxy In order to make your
family happy and to be accepted by this family you start doing a
"normal, solid" job. This kind of
"normal" job then makes you unhappy and leaves you with the strong
feeling that you are wasting your life. Your colleagues definitely keep
on showing you what they think of you. One time, two times... it goes round
and round and round. There are always the same kind of people in the
same kind of job who treat you exactly the same way as before. At this point things changed
in my life. All of sudden there was a crossroad and I had no choice what to
do. I could have returned to the "normal" way of life which
would have killed me someday and which would have made a zombie out of me. The other way was
to become what I am today. A member of a fringe group with a slightly
nonserious reputation. Some people smile
pitying at you, others look at you with despise, some people
admire your work and there are others who are green with envy. There are more
vocations (faith? Kismet?) of this kind with this very low reputation
concerning our society . Circus, musicians
and actors . And, weird enough, most
people love to see a Circus, they enjoy Concerts, and they go to the movies.
And most people favour some decoration. I am fond of artistes,
jugglers and Circus as such. But I do not like clowns at all. Clowns are a
kind of species I am not in need of at all. As to me Circus would be
perfect without any clowns. But I love music, all
kind of Arts, literature and I am a cineaste! (: I think we were given
a special gift, and it would be ungrateful not to devolop this gift.
Thats why we got it. Why should wie waste it? And I think everybody has got
some kind of gift, most people are not aware of it. This is the sad thing about
it. I am a person who
decided to share this gift. Doing things all alone seems to me like
travelling without telling somebody. Besides it makes me
happy to share my knowledge with others. I feel inspired by this. I am fond of networks.
Unfortunately there is too much competition and envy. It seems to me as if it
was mainly a problem of competitive egos. It seems to be hard to
find a sense of solidarity. But sometimes there are
great networks. I am happy to know some artists/painters who share the
same ideals, we are working together, I love it! I am happy the way I
live. I will never be rich. Sometimes it is really hard to survive, but it
worked out perfectly in the end. And I found out that I am in the right
place. We are very much in need
of those minstrels of society, aren`t we? As to me life would not
be worth living in a world reigned by people without imagination, courage and
"weird" ideas. We are the
court jesters of society. Court jesters should never be underestimated, in spite
of the fact that artists mostly are not given very much appreciation until
they are dead (;
knowlegde, talent,
handicraft, creativity, originality,and inimitability,uniqueness and truthfulness in the sense of being
authentic as a person. You need a lot of courage, modesty and humility and an
iron will as well as a free spirit. Sometimes I do not like
the kind of Art I see. But I do not have to love it to know that it is
Art.
My pictures are not the
kind of art you can see in my living room. It would be too much of me in a
place where I live. This might seem to be a bit weird, but there is no
incentive for new ideas when there is too much of my work around me. My
favourite picture for a living room would be a painting of the famous dutch
painter Vermeer . But nevertheless there
is a lot painters I admire: Hieronymus Bosch, Velasquez, Pieter Bruegel, Rembrandt,da Vinci, Lyonel Feiniger,
Kandinsky, Hundertwasser, van Gogh, Goya, Ernst Fuchs, Toulouse L`Autrec ..... there are many more. There is a
personal collection of my favourite art. link 1 and link 2.
I haven`t any. As a matter of fact I
am impressed by some people. There is Art which impresses me. Talent
impresses me. I am impressed by people who successfully managed to get
away from drugs, alcohol or cigarettes. People who successfully coped with
a personal crisis. People with an inner beauty and great
charakter. People with integrity und authentic people. I am
impressed by courage, intelligence, character, humour ... etc... this kind of
things. I am definitely not
impressed by doctorates, bank accounts, beauty, swimming pools or cars. But as a matter of fact
you have to have some talent to enjoy life, if not you cannot bring
colour into your life. As to me money is
nothing but a means to an end. There is no place for jewelry, money, shares,
houses, cars and gold bars in a coffin. It is absolutely useless to
save all that money for a gold-plated angel in the graveyard. But no matter if
we are poor or rich or something inbetween our personal dignity never
depends on money. It depends on self-esteem and self-respect . The idea of
life is to make the best of everything, because there is only one life. We won`t be any more
adorable, beautiful, fairy-like, happy etc. by chasing up money, vogue
and glory. Things happen - or not. So there is no
use at all to negate ourselves, the only thing we can do is to make the very
best of what we are made of.
You don't drown by
falling in the water; you drown by staying there. The idea of Memento
Mori - There is only one life we can live. It is precious, far too precious
not to be respectful with it. We should be aware of the fact that life is a
gift. Presence turns into
Past, life and death are part of a cycle, like a roundabout on a fair. life ranges between
second-rate theatre, first class entertainment, drama, comedy,theatre in the
absurd, trashy novel, vanity fair, deep truth, and great real values - in
short - masks and the truth behind the masks. There ist no chance to survice life without a sense of humour.
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