The very beginning...
I was born in
"Pinselhexe" which might be translated with "the witch of paint brushes" was given to me by friends. It is not really a professional name.
It was a nickname in the very beginning. There was a party, it was a bit late, there was a nice assortment of great wines - we were a bit elevated .
We had an exciting and transcendental discussion on the topic of rebirth. We invented some kind of historical lifetime and "biography" for everyone of us.
It was fun! (:
They decided that my historical life had taken place in the time of inquisition. The assortment of great wines made me a rebirth of a "witch" burned in the Middle Ages. Perfect for a trashy novel ! (:
Well, in real life I used to write letters with a fine brush, brushes were equal to any other kind of writing device. And I was a painter.
This was the day when the "witch of paint brushes " was born.
I never got rid of this name. So I decided to resign myself to this nickname - and made the best of it. I got used to it. (:
I am a kind of nomad :) There seems to be no home in this life. That is why I am on my way moving again. I used to live in Munich, Berlin and Wolgast, a small Town near the polish border nearby the Isle of Usedom. Now I am on my way to moving to a village nearby Erfurt, the capital city of Thuringia. It is located right in the middle of Germany, a place to find cultural life. In general people are not so different in other places but living in a place with some cultural life makes it easier to find some like-minded people. I am looking forward to it.
Cosmopolitans, honesty, direct ways of communication, transparency, and constructive review without any impeachment, broken biographies with a lot of facets, because you can find most interesting people there, fairness, high spirits, quick witted people with a sense of humour (the sense of humour definitely helps us to survive) willingness to take risks, there is no development without taking a risk, miracles , children and the way they feel about things , people with a moral courage and the courage to survive (Have we got any choice otherwise?
Stupidity, pigheadedness, envy, competitive mentalities, costiveness, unidimensional mentalities, small minded people, confirmed pessimists, imperiousness, cynisism, deceiptfulness, intriques,viciousness, ambush and psychological blackmail, bitchiness, intolerance, self-righteousness, and arrogancy, patriotism and glorification of violence and everything which is subject to any kind of dogma.
I would like to travel around the World with an open limit of time and money .
If I were a bit younger
I would have emigrated to some other country, probably into some
English-speaking Country .
Germany is a place
without any understanding for it`s artists und freelancers. You might be
extremely successful with some technological innovation, some new car
technology, these kind of things. But artists and freelancers are not the
kind of people
I would like to have the talent to back off the time. I would love to avoid some things that unfortunately happened in "earlier lifes". (One might ask, if this works... probably not. On the other hand it is much more useful to make no bones about it)
I would love to switch off some unappealing people just the way we deactivate some stupid movie on T.V.
Great question. This is one of those things which cannot be planned. Life puts us there, no matter if you want or not. There is only one way left. We are forced to to do what we are made for. In my life however,there was no plan for a "normal" way of life. Some people are "different" (as a friend of mine eventually expressed this fact in his friendly style (: )
This is not to say that you would make a bad job in a "normal" occupation, the point is you do not match. People with "normal" jobs seem to live in some other universe. ( I presume those people feel exactly the same way about "weirdos" :) )
You are classified as a weirdo by society and they won´t accept you the way you are. "Weirdos" are people who incommodate those with very narrow personal limits. "Weirdos" are disturbing factors for our standardized society.
My experience actually was that you are watched and stared at as if you were some rare animal from some unknown galaxy
In order to make your family happy and to be accepted by this family you start doing a "normal, solid" job.
This kind of "normal" job then makes you unhappy and leaves you with the strong feeling that you are wasting your life. Your colleagues definitely keep on showing you what they think of you. One time, two times... it goes round and round and round. There are always the same kind of people in the same kind of job who treat you exactly the same way as before.
At this point things changed in my life. All of sudden there was a crossroad and I had no choice what to do. I could have returned to the "normal" way of life which would have killed me someday and which would have made a zombie out of me.
The other way was to become what I am today. A member of a fringe group with a slightly nonserious reputation.
Some people smile pitying at you, others look at you with despise, some people admire your work and there are others who are green with envy.
There are more vocations (faith? Kismet?) of this kind with this very low reputation concerning our society .
Circus, musicians and actors .
And, weird enough, most people love to see a Circus, they enjoy Concerts, and they go to the movies. And most people favour some decoration.
I am fond of artistes, jugglers and Circus as such. But I do not like clowns at all. Clowns are a kind of species I am not in need of at all. As to me Circus would be perfect without any clowns.
But I love music, all kind of Arts, literature and I am a cineaste! (:
I think we were given a special gift, and it would be ungrateful not to devolop this gift. Thats why we got it. Why should wie waste it? And I think everybody has got some kind of gift, most people are not aware of it. This is the sad thing about it.
I am a person who decided to share this gift. Doing things all alone seems to me like travelling without telling somebody.
Besides it makes me happy to share my knowledge with others. I feel inspired by this.
I am fond of networks. Unfortunately there is too much competition and envy.
It seems to me as if it was mainly a problem of competitive egos.
It seems to be hard to find a sense of solidarity.
But sometimes there are great networks. I am happy to know some artists/painters who share the same ideals, we are working together, I love it!
I am happy the way I live. I will never be rich. Sometimes it is really hard to survive, but it worked out perfectly in the end. And I found out that I am in the right place.
We are very much in need of those minstrels of society, aren`t we?
As to me life would not be worth living in a world reigned by people without imagination, courage and "weird" ideas.
We are the court jesters of society. Court jesters should never be underestimated, in spite of the fact that artists mostly are not given very much appreciation until they are dead (;
handicraft, creativity, originality,and inimitability,uniqueness and truthfulness in the sense of being
authentic as a person. You need a lot of courage, modesty and humility and an
iron will as well as a free spirit.
Sometimes I do not like the kind of Art I see. But I do not have to love it to know that it is Art.
My pictures are not the kind of art you can see in my living room. It would be too much of me in a place where I live. This might seem to be a bit weird, but there is no incentive for new ideas when there is too much of my work around me. My favourite picture for a living room would be a painting of the famous dutch painter Vermeer .
But nevertheless there is a lot painters I admire: Hieronymus Bosch, Velasquez, Pieter Bruegel, Rembrandt,da Vinci, Lyonel Feiniger, Kandinsky, Hundertwasser, van Gogh, Goya, Ernst Fuchs, Toulouse L`Autrec ..... there are many more. There is a personal collection of my favourite art. link 1 and link 2.
I haven`t any.
As a matter of fact I am impressed by some people. There is Art which impresses me. Talent impresses me. I am impressed by people who successfully managed to get away from drugs, alcohol or cigarettes. People who successfully coped with a personal crisis. People with an inner beauty and great charakter. People with integrity und authentic people. I am impressed by courage, intelligence, character, humour ... etc... this kind of things.
I am definitely not impressed by doctorates, bank accounts, beauty, swimming pools or cars.
But as a matter of fact you have to have some talent to enjoy life, if not you cannot bring colour into your life.
As to me money is nothing but a means to an end. There is no place for jewelry, money, shares, houses, cars and gold bars in a coffin. It is absolutely useless to save all that money for a gold-plated angel in the graveyard.
But no matter if we are poor or rich or something inbetween our personal dignity never depends on money. It depends on self-esteem and self-respect .
The idea of life is to make the best of everything, because there is only one life.
We won`t be any more adorable, beautiful, fairy-like, happy etc. by chasing up money, vogue and glory. Things happen - or not.
So there is no use at all to negate ourselves, the only thing we can do is to make the very best of what we are made of.
You don't drown by falling in the water; you drown by staying there.
The idea of Memento Mori - There is only one life we can live. It is precious, far too precious not to be respectful with it. We should be aware of the fact that life is a gift.
Presence turns into Past, life and death are part of a cycle, like a roundabout on a fair.
life ranges between second-rate theatre, first class entertainment, drama, comedy,theatre in the absurd, trashy novel, vanity fair, deep truth, and great real values - in short - masks and the truth behind the masks.
There ist no chance to survice life without a sense of humour.